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Let’s Go Home Boutique in Del Mar Highlands is selling signed advance copies of Kingston Court!!!!!

Kinston Court’s official release date is only two and half weeks away!!!  September 10th. I’m as nervous as a cat on a hot tin roof and as excited as if it were my first Christmas. I’ll be adding buttons to this website between now and then that will link to some of the many places Kingston Court will be available for purchase including: Amazon, Kindle, Nook, Barnes & Noble.com, ITunes, Kobo, and more.

Thank you so much for all of your continued support in my book journey!!!

About two years ago I made the incredibly difficult choice to reinvent my life, to take an uncharted path away from predictable routines and a well-mapped future. As I have mentioned in previous blogs, I had financial security, a beautiful home, healthy children, and cute pets. Why rock the boat? Why listen to the deeper ache or confront what lay beneath the surface?

At the time, change felt terrifying and reckless. I woke each morning with a tight knot in my stomach and acid reflux burning my throat. After asking for a separation, I feared for my children’s well-being and worried I might fall into so much despair I wouldn’t be able to function. If that happened, I might as well have stayed where I was.

Shortly after moving back “home” to San Diego and renting an apartment for just my boys and I, I stumbled upon a framed print in a going out of business section of a boutique. It depicted a beautiful woman with roses in her hair and butterfly wings. It read I Choose Hope.

In spite of a tight budget, I bought the seriously discounted picture and hung it on my bedroom wall. I wanted something more for myself and the people I loved, and I was taking steps to make that happen. I was that woman in the picture. I was choosing hope.

Today, in this particular moment, I feel like Hope won. My ex is living with a smart, ambitious woman who truly gets him and inspires him. I have a man in my life who I would chose spending time with over John Mayer and every other celebrity I’ve ever crushed on (Keanu Reeves and Javier Bardem are totally crying right now that they can’t have me).

Most important, my children have adjusted to their shifted reality and truly appreciate the new people in their life. We are all proving that a nuclear family, society’s ideal, can change for the greater good and still grow emotionally and spiritually stronger.

I am days away from closing escrow on my very own home, one week away from starting another school year with my boys as a single mom, and less than a month away from releasing my first novel, Kingston Court, into the atmosphere.

Life is messy and complicated. What shows incredible promise today could end in failure or disappointment. The Vegas house could be more square footage and responsibility than I can handle, the boys may need more from me than I can give, my book could be ridiculed or ignored, nothing but a huge waste of time.

There’s a scene I adore from an old Steve Martin movie, Parenthood.

Steve Martin’s character, Gil, is complaining to his wife about his crazy life. Grandma wanders into the room.

Grandma: You know, when I was nineteen, Grandpa took me on a roller coaster.

Gil: Oh?

Grandma: Up, down, up, down. Oh what a ride!

Gil: What a great story. (extreme sarcasm)

Grandma: I always wanted to go again. You know, it was just so interesting to me that a ride could make me so frightened, so scared, so sick, so excited, and so thrilled all together! Some didn’t like it. They went on the merry-go-round. That just goes around. Nothing. I like the roller coaster. You get more out of it.

I agree, and I’m taking a leap of faith in betting it will all work out.

There’s a new Sci-Fi book waiting to entertain you! K.T. Hanna has just released her debut novel, Chameleon, The Domino Project Book 1.

What’s it about? It follows a mysterious woman named Sai and her newly awoken psionic powers that accidentally destroy her apartment complex. She’s immediately thrown into an intensive training program. Her only options are pass or die.  K.T. Hanna, a transplant to the U.S. from Australia, is a bit of a foreigner herself in a strange new world. I emailed back and forth with her recently to find out more about her must read story:

K.T. Hanna

Holly: OK, K.T., let’s get straight to it, what the heck is psionic power?

K.T.:      Psionic power is mind powers, or power of the mind. I used to play a type of Dungeons and Dragons called Rift – and my favorite character in there was a psionic. It’s related to psychic powers and the paranormal. Like suggestion. In my book I take it to extreme levels, like sinking into someone’s mind and reading their minds, manipulating their thoughts, right through to the manipulation, through the other person’s brainwaves of bodily functions like healing and harming.

Holly: Sounds intense! What inspired you to write this story?

K.T.:   Mind magic has always fascinated me. From simple empathic tendencies, through to Phoenix and Jean Grey in the X-men. This book is a combination of 2 previous ones. I tried to take the best of both worlds.

Holly: What a cool concept. As a fellow new author, I have to ask, what is your biggest fear in releasing your first book?

K.T.:   To be honest? That no one will read it. Because seriously, we write to bring our worlds to life, and it’s already alive for me. So my biggest fear would be for no one else to get to experience the world I love so much.

Holly: I can totally relate to your fear. It’s one thing for people to say bad things about your book, but that they won’t bother to read it all? … Yikes! OK, change of subject, how does your real life inspire you?

K.T.:   I have a 2.5 year old who just makes me believe in living for every day. And if I don’t pursue my dreams, how is that a good example for her. And my husband and his belief in me are pretty amazing too.

Holly: When and where do you write?

K.T.:   I write in a total binge a few times a year in my pretty office that hubs set up for me. It’s away from all noises and distractions and has a beach and lighthouse theme. You know, because being from Brisbane, Australia and living in Kansas – I miss the water.

Holly: Last question, give us your best pitch, why should people read Chameleon?

K.T.:   Hmmm. Because no one is ever perfect, and my characters have flaws and real struggles within themselves and their relationships with others and the world. Or I’d like to think they do.

It’s a kick ass world. There are aliens, privatized government, double agents, perpetrated lies, controlling drugs that become psychedelic if people with the wrong genetic makeup take them… It’s a big world, a post-post apocalyptic future in the wake of a meteor eco-disaster that alters earth’s atmosphere and shorelines.

That’s the book. I hope the story speaks for itself.

Holly: Thanks so much for all of your time K.T. I know a lot people are definitely GOING to read this book. Better yet, they will get all swooped up in your dynamic world and be waiting with baited breath for Book 2.

To order a copy for yourself, check out KT’s website or click here.

The Vegas house is almost done, the VEGAS HOUSE is almost DONE. That’s all there is to say.  Here’s a picture diary:

On our way to see the house!

Checking out the backyard first. My favorite part.

Yay! The flooring is finished.

Kitchen is almost complete

Upstairs all done

Climbed the mesa in celebration – Wahoo! (Can you spot the two children at the top?)

Living with Asperger’s is like living without your skin. You are fully exposed, raw and vulnerable to the world.

Affectionately know as Aspie’s to those who love them, Asperger’s syndrome includes those who rate low (meaning high-functioning) on the autism scale. Aspie’s are much more sensitive to sounds, light, taste and touch than the average Joe. Even more challenging, they are socially blind…they don’t pick up on the social nuances, like someone crossing their arms or taking a small step backwards means they don’t like what you just said. It’s extremely hard to make and keep friends when you can’t read facial expressions and you have no idea you’ve just said something “wrong.”

Clay Marzo, the star of the new book, Just Add Water: A surfing Savant’s Journey With Asperger’s, knows all about this.  Though he is known as the best freestyle surfer in the world, Clay struggled most of his life with undiagnosed Asperger’s syndrome. Clay’s story makes for a surprisingly entertaining beach read and his rise to the top is beyond inspiring.

Another reason to read his riveting story….autism affects 1 in every 68 children. We will ALL be touched by autism in some way.

I recently exchanged emails with my writer friend, Robert Yehling, who co-wrote Just Add Water, alongside Clay. Here’s what he had to say:

Robert Yehling

HOLLY: Robert, what led you to write this story?

ROBERT: This story came to me. I was having dinner with my sweetheart, Martha Halda, and my good friend Mitch Varnes when Mitch brought up the idea of a book on Clay. Mitch has been Clay’s manager for almost 10 years. I was a little unsure at first, only because memoirs from surfers don’t tend to do well commercially, but when Mitch and Martha started talking about Clay’s Asperger’s and the challenges of parenting an autistic kid, I realized this book had to be written.

HOLLY: Once you got started, what surprised you most?

ROBERT: Clay’s remarkable wisdom when it comes to the ocean, his view of the world, and working with autistic kids. He is a loving and caring man who can fully express it at times, which in my experience is unusual on the spectrum. I expected emotional coolness and aloofness, but instead, he was warm and kind quite often. Quiet, but warm and kind. The other surprise is that he was a good writer when he was a kid; his stories from grade school are outstanding (we ran one in the book). While we were driving around Maui, the digital recorder rolling, he said to me, ‘You know what’s cool about working on this book? I feel like I did when I used to write all the time. It’s nice to feel like that again.’

HOLLY: I totally agree with your observations about Clay being warm and kind. The Aspie’s I’ve met are some of the sweetest, most loving people I know. That they can’t connect with others is such a misconception. For many of them, they want and need friends more than anything else. That said, what in your opinion, was Clay’s biggest challenge?

ROBERT: Clay’s biggest challenge is reading facial and social cues, like most with Asperger’s. It frustrates him, but he’s learned to ask someone he trusts to help him interpret facial expressions. His other lifelong challenge concerns serious anxiety issues. They have already deeply affected his professional surfing career, making competition very difficult for him. He gets anxious with just a few surfers in the water, so he often paddles off and surfs alone. Plus, he doesn’t do well in dog-eat-dog environments, which a pro surfing contest certainly is. He feels the same in any crowded restaurant, at airports, around people he doesn’t know… he will always be challenged by this.

HOLLY: How does he overcome that challenge?

ROBERT: Clay’s tendency in any situation like this is to go off by himself, or play with his dog. He also has a great one-two support team, his mother, Jill, and girlfriend, Jade Barton, who talk with him every time his challenges lead to uncomfortable moments in public, or at home. They essentially break down what happened, and help him see alternative ways of dealing with it. As his behavioral therapist, Carolyn Jackson, told me, ‘His brain is not wired to handle these things like we would. Our responses are built-in; he doesn’t have those.’

HOLLY: Clay is lucky to have found such an awesome support group. I wish all Aspie’s had people like Clay’s mom and girlfriend in their corner. I imagined you learned so much yourself while putting this story together. How did writing this book change you?

ROBERT: I have a far deeper appreciation for what parents and loved ones experience and how their lives are impacted by kids and adult children with autism. Martha’s niece is the mother of an autistic boy, and in spending all the time with Clay and his mother, I was able to give Sarah a bit of a preview of things to come — something I’d never be able to do before. The book also has changed my view of people with high-functioning autism completely. 180 degrees. When I talk with or meet someone who is autistic or an Aspie now, I find out what their areas of interest are, and that’s what we talk about, or what I do with them. Never would have known how to interact like this had Clay Marzo not walked into my life.

HOLLY: What a wonderful gift! Why should other people read Just Add Water?

ROBERT: One reviewer put it, ‘It’s a great beach read and, at the same time, a very important read on one of our biggest social issues.’ That captures it for me. It’s both a lot of fun and a very inside look at how one autistic child impacts a family and community — and in Clay’s case, the world, since he’s an internationally renowned surfer. I think the notion of a world-class athlete being autistic is, in itself, going to arouse curiosity. How did he become so great? How does Asperger’s help his focus and prowess as a surfer? We have that, but also how the Marzo family swung the doors open and gave their varying opinions of life with an autistic son/brother — and these opinions are raw and contentious in places. We’ve had more comments on this than anything else.

HOLLY: I bet you have. There is so much diversity of opinion in the world of Asperger’s and of course, no two Aspies are alike. This has been such a great interview Robert, anything you’d like to add before we go?

ROBERT: This was one of the most fun projects in my 40 years as a professional writer, and one of the hardest. I had to use every interviewing and conversation-creating trick in the book to get enough recorded material from Clay to produce the book the way we wanted it. Sometimes, that meant sitting in absolute silence for hours at a time. I often asked questions four or five different ways, trying to spark answers. Some days, it was very tough. When I went with the flow and sat silently, the next day was always good.

HOLLY: Well your time and effort were well worth it. The book is fantastic. Thank you so much for your time Robert!

ROBERT: My pleasure.

To order this must-read book, click here or visit your local Barnes & Noble. To learn more about Robert Yehling and his writing, check out his website.

Clay Marzo at a book signing.

My topic today is dating with children, in my case with FIVE children between us. There’s a baby, almost three, an 8 year old, 10 year old, and two 12 year olds.

The Ferocious 5

I wish I could snap pictures of the looks I get when I’m out schlepping all of these children on my own. My skirt is often splattered in cereal bars and schmutz, my limp frazzled hair tied back in an enticing bun. Strangers look at me like I’m batshit crazy, selfish for overpopulating the earth, or in complete awe at my bravery and calm demeanor. I pretend I’m Angelina Jolie.

When Ro and I first started dating, we saw each other without any of our children. It was romantic, and sexy, and exciting. Our clothes were clean and our hair smelled good. People would comment how in love we looked. It was all super sweet and reassuring. We talked about our kids a lot, about how much they would adore each other and improve one another’s lives. The two twelve year olds are both quirky and smart, they would be instant friends. Ro’s 10 year old would adore anybody he loved. My 8 year old baby of the family would be a bit jealous of an actual baby, but he would enjoy having Ro’s middle child as a playmate. Sounds great, right? My mother chuckled.

A big piece of me knew better. The reality of blending families is tough business. I grew up in a big blended family, my mom has four and my step-dad has four. Eight is Enough, and most of us are girls. Five girls menstruating. Five girls sharing two bathrooms. Five girls who liked boys.  We had the kind of drama in our family you could write memoirs about.

Usually siblings fight with one another. Throw in kids from another mother or father and watch those same siblings line up like comrades in war – red vs. blue. Or, maybe one of those siblings defects to the other side, now you are talking a lifetime of wounds and rifts. The parents get involved and they discreetly, or in some cases, very adamantly, take sides. It gets loud, emotional, and sometimes dark. There’s great stuff too, really awesome things like big family dinners and holidays, lots of birthday parties, clothes to borrow and plenty of gossip to share. Still, it’s not all fun and games and I knew it.

When Ro and I first introduced our children to each other, we disproved the odds. With all the hazy shine of an Instagram picture, our dreams for our kids to adore each other bloomed into fruition. It was glorious. They got along, they shared their Pokémon cards, they stayed up all night talking and giggling.

Now that they have all spent plenty of time together, it is much more clear. It’s not always going to be that easy. The kids argue over which video game to play, which movie to watch, who gets to sit in the front seat of the car, and they maneuver for spots closest to their respective parent. They often disagree agree on what they want for dinner, where they want to go for the day, or who spilled the popcorn all over the carpet. Best of all, one of them ALWAYS bangs on the master bedroom door the moment it is closed shut.

Just like with my own childhood, the good still outweighs the hard. Like when they are all getting along and dog piling on top of one another, or playing hide and seek, or pushing each other on the swings at the park. There is never a shortage of toys, or books, or snacks, and they never have to sleep alone when we’re all together. Once they have been apart, they miss each other.

You know what the best thing about turning forty has been for me? Not wearing any of these adorable jeans – ever again!

I put them on one last time for this super exciting photo shoot after not wearing any pants with a button on them for nearly a year and a half. I thought they looked kind of awesome.

In my teens, twenties, and even into my thirties, jeans were my go-to pants for nearly every occasion. They can be dressed up or dressed down. They even give me a bit of a booty, and show off my tiny curves. Plus, they go with just about everything.

But they have always done something else too…something I used to be willing to ignore for the sake of fashion. They made me feel like I had a boa constrictor wrapped around my tummy and climbing up my crotch (Not in a good way!) I would secretly unbutton them just to eat a meager salad and from the moment I put them on, thoughts of tearing them off consumed me. I’m pretty sure I’ve left behind a good time on more than one occasion just so I could go home and put on some comfy cozies.

Thankfully, something absolutely magical happened as I approached forty. I stopped caring about stupid things as much. I learned that enjoying my time and the people I am with, is far more important than how good my butt looks. Far. More. Important.

I’ve noticed most of my other girlfriends also started to change as they approached their forties. It’s like Mother Nature knew we needed an extra dose of happy. Our joints are just beginning to creak and our faces are sporting more lines and spots, but our souls break free. We instinctively put greater value on what matters.

A few weeks back, I asked my fabulous Facebook buddies to tell me some of the best things they have noticed or learned since zooming in close or breezing past the big Four O. Smart ladies that they are, they had some great advice and heartfelt lessons to share. Here’s what they wrote:

I’ve learned to trust my gut, always, and to stop apologizing for who I am. I’ll add this: Beauty really does derive from within, and from happiness. Our passions are everything. They won’t fail us if we trust them. – August McLaughlin

Don’t be concerned what other people think. Do what feels right in your heart. All people are doing the best they can. – Reena Jordan Reilly

Happiness is a choice!!!! Not something that just happens to you. – Victoria Ronningen

Sex is not love…it’s just sex…don’t choose a life partner soley on that! – Kathryn Bedbury

Your voice is worthy, strong and worth hearing. If you have something to say, say it. – Asavari Phadnis

The people who aren’t nice to you/ignore you/are cliquey aren’t people you’d want to be friends with anyway. If you WERE part of their group you’d be shunning someone else and that’s not who you are! (This has been a huge lesson for me.) – Danielle Levinson Beres

Do for others, without expecting anything back. The act of being kind is enough, otherwise you might be disappointed. – Shellene Mueller

Beauty (in the commercial sense) is overrated, really good friends are far and few between, don’t forget the people that really care about you. When one big event is over, start planning the next, time goes by so fast, don’t get too caught up in your mistakes (mostly you are the only one that notices them… don’t tell on yourself, likely no one noticed but you. – Mariea Henry

I was super shy as a child and teen. Always thought I was different from everyone. Now I have realized that pretty much everyone like they are different and don’t quite fit in. My lifestyle now however, is different than my peer. Now I just could care less what anyone thinks. My son’s opinion is the only one that matters. – Nicole Lyons

Something that resonated with me lately was, “It is not about getting what you want, it is about wanting what you already got.” It reminded me that it is easy to get caught up in the quest for more or the next thing instead of enjoying the present. – Cindy Franklin Katz

And when it comes to dating… If a man wants to meet at his place for a first date, you can tell him to f*** off and go pay for it! – Susannah Cernojevich

What has changed for you for the better???  We want to know.

P.S. I gave one of those uncomfortable pairs of jeans to my BFF after the photo shoot. She totally rocks them out…so glad they are no longer torturing me or taking up space in my closet when they can be enjoyed by someone who appreciates them.

Things are getting real. It’s been such an eventful month.

In addition to lining up loads of media interviews for the book, hangin’ with my boys at the beach, and all the other things that go on when your children are off for summer vacation, the Vegas house is getting built well ahead of schedule. While unheard of in California, it looks like my Nevada home will be finished about two months earlier than expected.

The drywall went up, the outside has stucco, windows are installed, baseboards are nailed in, and paint has been applied on the interior and exterior walls. Cabinets are even in place now, throughout the house. Take a look:

Paperwork is being rushed. Timelines are shifting. I momentarily lost sight of how incredibly exciting all of this is and began freaking out about how I was going to get everything finished on my end in time, move boxes in the dead of a desert summer, and how in the heck I was going to furnish and landscape the biggest chunk of space I’ve ever owned.

Just as I was getting my mind around the house being done early, one of my older brothers called with a major life reality check. He took his little Puggle, Sasha, for a walk outside his home in West Hollywood and saw a twenty-something guy sitting on the curb, dressed in baggie jeans and white athletic shoes. Two police cars screeched to a stop in front of the guy and four armed officers jumped out, guns pointed. They told him to freeze and the guy stood up and charged. All four officers fired multiple shots. They guy went down.

Blood pooled in the street. My brother saw a knife on the ground near the guy’s body. An ambulance came and put him on a stretcher, a sheet covering most of his body. My brother watched the guy’s feet twitching in his athletic shoes as they carted him way. Thank goodness he hadn’t taken his three-year-old daughter with him on the walk. My brother and I talked about whether or not the LAPD over-reacted, ways they could have handled things differently, and how quickly life can turn in an instant.

My brother’s story underlined the importance of three universal truths: Life can change in the span of a dog walk. People are crazy. Appreciate who and what you have…while you have it.

My house will be finished by the end of summer. Forget lush landscaping and rooms full of new furniture, I’m going to do my very best to fill this home to the brim with love, music, children, family, and all the things that matter most.